ScRaMbLiNg

I keep forgetting something about God. While He is infinitely more concerned with my well-being than I am, He's considerably less worried about it. God is not worried about whether or not I reach my ultimate goals. My sights have been set for far too long on the end of that five step plan, whereas, His have been on how close we'll get during the ride. My seeking Him is way more important than my knowing exactly which path to take and when.

Facing my humanity squarely grants me the freedom to quit pretending I have it all together. I do not have to have the answers. I don't even have to have the right questions at this point. What I do have is closeness with One whose strength doesn't waver, whose sense of direction is never off and whose grace is big enough to cover each and every fumbling step along the way.

I ran across this article on the Relevant website. This article pretty much sums up where I am in my struggle to draw close to God. I get too wrapped up in notions of "getting it right" or "doing His will" and often forget that what he really wants is for me just to come as I am...Screwed up, imperfect, and confused...and desperately seeking His closeness.

God, help me to realize that I desire you more that anything else.